BEFORE READING. BACE BETOL BETOL LAH CHIBYE!
AKU CAKAP SMASH YOUR HEAD LIGHTS!
AND BODOH! HEAD LIGHT IS THE LIGHT THAT CAN BE FOUND AT THE FRONT PART OF A CAR.
AND IM REALLY SORRY IF U DONT KNOW TO BEZE KAN KEPALE NGAN HEAD LIGHTS UH.
CAUSE I GUESS YOUR TO BUSY OBSESSING BOUT YOUR OWN PITYFULL SELF.
AND NOT MEET YOU IN SCHOOL!
I SAY WHEN I SEE YOUR UGLY PRESENCES INFRONT OF ME.
AND I MEAN LITERALLY INFRONT OF ME.
FROM WHAT I REALISE YOU JUST WALK PASSED ME. AND TILL THEN, YOUR MONEY WILL JUST WALK PASS BY YOU TOO!
FIRST AND FOR MOST! IM NOT AFRAID TO LOOK AT HER.
I STILL HAVE RESPECT FOR HER, I CAN LOOK HER IN THE EYE IF I WAN TOO.
BUT MY RESPECT LEVEL FOR YOU DROP 7 FEET BELOW EVER SINCE U SHOUTED AT UR MOM INFRONT OF US!
UHUH! AKU UNGKIT ASAL?! ADE HAL!?
THE VIRGIN PROBLEM, I SETTEL IF WITH HER ALREADY. SOO, NOW SEKARANG KAU NAK UNGKIT JUGAK PE BABI!?
SHE DIDNT TELL YOU BOUT THE WHOLE SHARE MONEY BUY CAKE THINGY , WHY?
CAUSE IT WAS UR FUCKING BDAY! OR MAYBE SHE FORGOT.
AND ITS THE SAME CASE, I TOLD YOU YEAH. I WILL PAY ALL OF IT BIT BY BIT.
CAUSE I DIDNT REMEMBER BOUT THAT DEAL.
AND ITS NOT CAUSE IM A ASSHOLE AND NOT WANTIING TO PAY IT BACK.
A DEAL IS A DEAL.
AND FUCKERR! PLEASE UNDERSTAND. WE WERE IN THE TALKING TERMS WHEN THIS HAPPEN.
JUST THAT I WAS PRETENDING EVERYTHING WAS OKAAY.
THE GETTING INFLUENCE THINGY.
YEAAAHHH! I WAS TALKING BOUT YOU. AND THE 'YOU GO SHOPPING EVERYDAY' THATS YOUR PROBLEM. AND BODOH PEEE! KAU FIKIR KAU SORANG PE GI SHOPPING HARI2?
I MIGHT BE REFERING TO PARIS HILTON AND NOT YOU AMALINA!
I RATHER NOT HAVE A FASHION SENSE THEN DRESSING UP LIKE ONE CHEAP BITCH OKAAY!
AND ARE TRYING TO SAY WHEN I TURN SKINNY MY FASHION SENSE WILL TURN BETTER?
KAU ADE OTAK TAAK?
I GUESS NOT, CAUSE FAT PPL CAN BE FASHIONABLE TOO.
DO YOU NEED AN EXAMPLE SO THAT YOU CAN GET THINGS CLEAR?

AND ME BUGGIN YOU STILL?
WELL, AT LEAST IM DOING MY JOB WELL!
CAUSE THATS WHAT I WANNA DO.
yay me! =D
oh and i guess u still read my blog uh!?
this means im not bugging you, you find yourself something to be bugged about.
oh wow!
why dont u just run along and waste your money shopping.
dont bother reading.
and mee? i read your blog too!
yeahh. i doo. cause whyy?
i wanna see what you wrote bout me and then i will lawan balik and bug u even more
yay me again!
cause i know you, u always wanna win.
pfft~ maybe with the person who can tolerate you, you can win.
but hell no am i tolerating you!

byee =D

why are the elder sister of brother protective of the little ones?
i just like finish reading alfian blog.
and i find that the abang or kakak will like jage the adek like one kind like that.
hahhaa.
u might say, im a kakak myself! i should understand the feeling.
truth is, i DONT!
cause i dont fucking care what happen to my lil bro.
he starve ke, tak mandi ke, jatoh ke, darah ke.
i dont care
causee??
my mum will come running like one hardcore runner and save him.
and me? sit back and laugh! hahahah.
mean i know!
but heck, he doesnt need me and i dont need him either.
like seriously, what can he help me with?
pfft~


my day?
a boring one. didnt like attend school.
couldnt get up and i feel sick-ish and my body is aching still.
i have plans tomoro.
but gees~ i dono if i can go.
i have yet to ask ibuu.
=D
im a no lifer.
like i said gazzilion time! =D
okay.
i is going to bed!
i is saying bye bye
i is missing me cousin,
i is dead.

i dont know who you are anymore?
you some how changed.
i feel like you no longer need me around.
im just there, standing.
do u still need me?
do u still love me?
do i mean anything to you?
i dono. you have the answer.
i dont.
then again, you NEVER fail to make me happy.


hmmm.
my day was kinda horrible.
not sooo?
haha.
met ayu after i dono berape lamee?
i miss her.
catch up with her like alot.
talk about pregnancy, sex and boys.
hahaha.
dont ask why!?
and ayu, you're a strong lady and i know your going to deal with your family prob very well.
=D
soooo yeah,
when to school. but it was kinda pointless.
i only like went for literature lesson.
mdm nashita was suprise to see me in class, i was even much more suprise.
i would probably be in bed.
after recess i was at the canteen till school ends. haha
fun, chatted with aidaa.
and im not going to school tomoro
most of use is like despo for job. hahha.
i wan another job too. retail please!
and damn you zk! got a job at FOX

okay..
i'll be going now.
much love ppl. ! =D

I WILL ONLY PAY YOU BACK 2 BUCKS.
CAUSE THE FUCKING DEAL WAS ME AND HER PAY HALF HALF THE THAT STUPID CAKE OF YOURS!
AND SHE MIGHT FORGET BOUT THE DEAL.
BUT I FUCKING REMEMBER IT.
AND FUCK YOU! IF U THINK IM GOING TO PAY YOU THE REST.
IF U WAN THAT 2BUCKS, I WILL GIVE IT TO YOU WHEN I SEE YOUR UGLY PRESENCE INFRONT OF ME.

AND I RATHER HAVE A BIG FAT BODY THEN MOUTH.
CAUSE WITH THAT BIG ASSHOLIC MOUTH OF YOURS PPL WILL START TO HATE YOU.
BIAR MUKE BUROK, PERANGAI JANGAN!


bet you never thought that i would be a psycho bitch
the kind of girl thats gonna smash your head lights
i can be, i swear.

what is?
the song bad girl by dk.
haha.
cause i've heard it way before the vids came out.
if u like watch making the band 4, like me!
you guys would have seen them recording it.
they fought for the song.
real intersting. =D

anywayss,
life.
came tumbling down this month.
chances of hanan leaving for aust , for good this time is high.
but yeah, dont wan to think of it.
im going to school tomoro.
rozaini and nabilah miss me.
haha. *see tag board.
and as for rozaini, i sms-ed him just now asking if he's going to school tomoro
and yeah his going
and he even sempat cakap 'aku tunggu kau mcm jantan ayam nak bertelor'
hahhaha.
seee, i've got great friends .
=D

wearing a green cap now.
dont ask why okaaay! i just LOVE this cap.
and thank YOU! :)

lets see.
im dieting. nothing new really.
i've been dieting since i dono when. haha
i love my body, but i need to lose a lil bit moree. =D
ppl eat alot during hols uh? im not.
i only eat at 1pm and last meal will be at 5pm
no snack in between. =D
and nooo, no work out.
dumb i knooow. LOL!
but heckk.
i just wanna lose at least 5 kg.
yes yes. haha
random much.

and fuck!
csi is real interstinggg. hahaha
i think i can uppdate again tomoro.
but late like this. haha
cause , i have my reason.
and i miss hana khaldon abdat.
* i hope i spelled it corectly.

okay bye.

Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted

my internet is still down.
somehow, the wireless service is great right now.
sooo shall update a lil'

my hols are G-R-E-A-T!!
you can find me at home most of the time.
yes, no life-er.
but at least im not out every single day.
and get influent by those outside ppl.
and follow how they dress up
then , you will follow and seem very VERY! trampy!

oh once,
i when out.
saw that someone with the big fat mouth!
ppfffttt~ totally ruin my daay.
hahhaa.
but heck! got great companyyy!
hahahah

usher on teevee.
and im not okay really.

'goodnight take care i'll miss you thaqifah goodbye'
that totally, like scared me.
im not ready to lose you, never will be too.
*sigh.

school tomoro. but heck! i aint going.
bye now.

well, life has been great.
now that some BUGGERS are out of my life.
maybe the world will be less polluted if your mouth just stop talking.

and uh.
im real happy that hanan is staying here.
and not going away, again! -.-
bought a lil diary with kari. *see how it rhymes? haha
i will write stuff there . stuff that could not be typed out here.
and also my internet is down, still. so that will be my blog.
only certain ppl can read it though.
haha =D

anywayssss.
im at library.
guess who i am with?
let me tell u laaa haha.
firdaus, yasmeen, nats and of course KARINA MAY DEVADAS.
=D
i saw ramzam. he waved at me. haha. *blush.
byyy! dont jealouss, his my primary school friend. haha
oh yeaah.
eat breakfast at ljs.

oh yeaah.
bad news.
my mum will have to undergo some surgery?
some part of her vain. in her hand when haywire.
to much work i guess?
but she is going to be okaaay after the surgery.
i just noww. she's strongg! =D
her first check up is this friday?
yes yes. sgh.
tomoro la tuu
24. bby!!! 24th! haha
=D

and soo.
thats all for today i guess.
and you!
maybe u should really ask yourself why ppl start hating you or something.
cause really miss, u have a problem.

and now, i rather be dead.
im sorry bby.
im sorry.

rich that iss.
yesss, im a fucking cheapooo.
like i said before.
and my mum cant afford above 20bucks shirt.

i dont find it as a big deal.
becauseeee.
she work to support herself and us.
and its only fair if she wan to spend less on us.
because its her hard earn money.
right?
and im 16. i still need to depend on herr so does my sis and lil bro.
dad? half of his pay is gone paying the bills.
he do spend on us.
he bought me my 99bucks londsdale shoe. londsdale bag.
and he pay for my school stuff. which cost ALOT!!!
and yeah. we're not rich, at least we are happy and have a fucking shelter above our head.
and seriously,
even if my parents were born rich?
they are the one that is rich.
i am not . im only sharing their happines of being rich.


i rest my case.
bye.





i love you.

well, im in school now.
internet back at home is down.
fuck you singnet!

nothing much to update about.
nothing in my brain.
soooo, when shopping yesterday.
bought a dress.
might be going back there again today with ibu.
i wan to get my hi-tea dress & another wear go out dress.
i know a lil too early.
but i will busy with work next month.
which is also the hi-tea month, soooo get it early.
soo wont rush-shop.
=D
and i fell in love with that dress anyways.
the dress i bought. phhheewwww!
im happy laaaaaaaaaaa, i look like tyra banks wearing it.
my endless leg.. haha.
im tttaaaalllllll!!!!!
=D

i love bugis street really.
hahahha.
im like label cheapo here in school.
cause i buy all the cheap cheap stuff.
my wonder woman shirt is 1.90
'mysterious seductive and difficult to manage' shirt is also 1.90
'its not easy being this cute' shirt is also 1.90
like honestly,
none of my top is beyoooonndd 10 bucks.
excepts for bottoms, it pretty expensive
i dont find it rather worth it.
oh oh! my cheap shirt are all cotton material.
it last, sooo no worries. hahah.
even at 20dollar top is expensive to me cause my mum cant afford it. :)
but i dont mind it at all.

hanan is sooooo luck to have me as his like soon to be wife.
cause i wont spend alot of clothes.
maybe bags he will have to spend a lil more.
i wan the gucci bag and also lv. haha =D

ohhhhh.
realise something?
even when i said i have nothing to update about.
i really do have soemthing to say.
i finish class at 3 today.
soooo, i shall update something again laterrr. haha
=D
bye ppl. =D

school was fun! hahah
izad is funny and a great 'teacher'.
i kinda understand the whole ISO apercherr shutter language. hah
SOOOOOOOOOO!, motivateed to get an dslr camera.
gonna work my ass offf.
gonna pack food from home and wont spend more then i can afford.
baju all can buy from the budget shop.
fuck hell is im repeating my outfit. haha
i wan to get it by decemberr.
then after the dslr.
collect money for scrambler of my own.

i just wan to acheive all this before i turn 22.
i wanna buy my own expensive stuff.
now, i feel like getting another job.
2 jobs. save 200 from each pay for 3 months.
can get one. haha. =D
and get extra lense or something.
yes yes.
im into photography since last last year?
yeah. i wanna work part time as a photographer someday.
=D
take picture of weddings ect ect.
or maybe work of national geographic so i can travel and take picture of a lion!
=D

ohhh. my day?
was a boring day.
batt died first thing in the morning. *phone.
really tired cause i sleep pretty late yesterday.
watch criminal minds and half of cold case.
fav fav fav.
shemar mooree. aaahhhh. hot stuff.
walk around compass with shin ee and nats after school.
bought the bk burger.
came back home and eat and watch tv and sleep.
tot of waiting for someone sms but got super letargic and tired of waiting.
tido baik.
later also will continue.
im just sooo bleargh.
any gig's ppl!?
i need to mosh and hurt myself of other ppl to get better.

okay uhh
im just to bleargh to type anymore.

this is such a beautiful song.
but somehow i cant dwnlod it. and find the full version anywhere.
and i hereby say.
i wanna be her when i grow up.
hahahaha
-.-

work was fun.
first daaay.
got to learn alot about flowers.
interesting.
flower needs food too.
i got to change the water and all.
haha.
and dont bother coming by the shop.
hahha.
=D

nothing much happen passed days.
oh yeaaah.
a-lyn bday! hahaha
met them after work for a lil while.
cause they were in town.
sooo yeah. when home together.
i miss them already. ahah
i think i have school tomoro. haha
:)

good night now.
& hanan, i love you.

i shall update properly now.
i guess? haha
exams are overrrrr.
school for me is pretty much overrr too.
just need to like come back to school for elective module.
photography.
i am soooo crosing my finger and toes that we can learn how to operate and DSLR/SLR
camera.
cause in the lesson/timetable thingy it says we will learn about lenses.
and a typical digi cam doesnt not operated with like . cut it short .
it doesnt need lenses all thiss laaaaa.
and our photoshoot will be at botanical gardern.
which btw! i find very lame yet interesting place to be snapping pictures.
should try place with nostalic touch or something.
but nevertheless, as photographers. you gotta make something out of nothing. aha.
one of the rules of photography, DONT THINK, JUST SNAP!
and i when there only once. performance with NVMD! =D
good times good times. haha.
praying super hard that we are like being offer to use the cam. aha.

and soooooooo.
lives been great.
me and hanan. shakky moments here and there.
pulled it through.
love him ! :)
noooooo idea where he is noww.
and im going to officially start working this coming monday.
where? qispetals.
what the fuck is thaat?
http://www.qispetals.com.sg/
go visit. im working with my cousin.
but still im still looking for a permanent part time job.
cause the job is like, when i need you you come kinda job.
i need to get rich fast.
i wan that *** (hanan should know this)
i wan loadssss of shirts and bottom.
and lastly, enough money to go for TOC!
we shall see how it goes. haha.
=D

today?
d&t was tough!
the one i never study come outtt.
but honestly, i didnt study at all. haha
screw.
after paper. breakfast with karina.
a date. hahah. =D
and sooooo after that. wasted time over there.
and compass point is stinky. alll thanks to the stupid duck shop.
plus the dried mushroom stall.
wah piang ehhhh!
fell in love with a bag at 77th street.
dickies, but heck. the bag isss soooooo! overrated. like spongebob.
seems like everyone owns it.
tsssk. haha
i rather ask kakak buy the cherry cherry or kit kat bag.
=D
and later heading to compass. *pinchnose.
ibu never cook AGAIN! and ayah needs food to break fast.
puase enam la orang tue tuuu!

okaaay.
bye now.
finally a proper blog post. ahha.
might be changing skin too.
=D

hahahahahahahha.
like literally!
i was walking into the kitchen looking super sloppy.
like come on.
at home sape nak tgk kan ifa pretty pretty.
well, my sis friends came over for raye .
but hack. tu tak important.
kkk.
back to the story!
walking walking wanted to shout 'IBU!'
sekali, 'asalammuailakum!'
i turn my head, and half my body.
POP!!! syed azmir!!!!!!! haha.
kk daa. then my reaction... normal.
hahahaha. noooot!!!
i sort of screeaamm.
not those not loud kind.
its like shriking.
i run to my room.
told my sis and everyone.
i was super embaresss. i look not sooo pretty. hahahahah.
BONUS BONUS!!!!
imran ajmain was there. hahah. *cair.
if i sumpah the tak tau malu face. i would have like totally ask him to sing for me ghaibmu. hahha. FAVOURITE BABEEEE!
okaaay. excited gilerrrrr.
fauzi and khairul was here tooo.
hahah.
fauzi was really quiet. i bloody serve him plain water. hahaha. =D
picture? proof?
NAHHH AMEK KAUU!

hahahaha.
i miss updating my blog.
ppl looove reading it.
i knoow. korang tak nak bilang je kaaan?
aku tau. aku tau. -.-
and soooo
SELAMAT HARI RAYA IYAAAA! maaf zahir dan batin.
first day of raya wasnt that happening uhhh.
not like previous yearsssss. not sure wh neither.
and and and colour them for my family on the first day is cream-ish white . near white yet far.
hahahahahahahha! i told hidayat this hoping he will get confused.
but asss. he didnt!!! -.-

okaaaay.
sumpah didnt visit alot of house cause of school.
for some ppl uh. i didnt have any ppr on the day. soo.
home i was.

first thing we did was go salon . set our hair.
like last year and the year before.
i already had my brows done! yippy.
ibu said nothing. haha. she go do also. haha. =D
and i'll post one picture of myself first k?
yang lain. later later caaan.
going out laterrr.
house visiting again!
AND TAIIIKKKK!!! 106 je sey this year get money.
i mean alhamdullilahhh but. its kinda pathetic.
but die die put aside 95bucks for TOC.
and righht.
i have no kaki to go with, only karina may devadas.
that if she get the tix uhh.

aahaha. okay byeee.