lets see.
2008 was a super fast moving year for me.
ups and down.
high and low.
down and under.
i guess it wen by fast cause i was pretty much caught up in school and stuff.
nevertheless, i seriously think 2008 is the bestest year ever?

why you may ask?
i dont really know?
it wasnt really misirable nor was it perfect.
haha. i venture into the 'developing to find myself' this year.
i was into the emo shit thingy then i stepped out of that cause i've out grown it.
then i turn into a girl . :) hahhahhaha!
i must say, im starting to find myself.
arguement with my peeps, is pretty much expected right?
wen you became so close with each other, stuff like this is bound to happen.
it hurted me, but like i said before the feeling to numb.
i forgive. :)
this year too, i hopped on into the working world.
it made me learn to live life the hard way. i dont wan to be spoonfeed for the rest of my life.
time to live it on my own. ahah cheycheychey.! :)
passing N level's, is the highlight of this year i guess?
oh and meeting , knowing , loving aiman hanan IS the highlight of the year.
other random happening i can think of.
fell in love with ban mian, anugerah peeps came over and bro's pprball incident.
okay la.
i ran out of word.
im just living life to the fullest now. no matter what year it is.
:)
bye

well, the song on my blog has been on repeat since i got it from zeek.
haha.
really, dont you guys think its a nice song?
the lyrics moved me to tearssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.
it deeep.

my day started bad cause my eyes was a swallon cause i cried that night b4 going to sleep
very emo sia. those nak grab attention kinda statement.
'i cried myself to sleep' -.-
but seriously, i did laa.
i think cause i was dissapointed in myself for dissapointing.
i've been working like as if im super woman. i worked for 13 hours.
can you imagine that? reason for working that long hours?
a fred perry shoe. haha. :)
or a guess bag. i'll see what i can afford.

anyways, something made me super motivated to study and work my ass of to become somebody in the future.
i wan to be working at some great company, get 6 digit pay.
i wont be looked down on.
at least i'll try. :)
speaking of work, i did closing today.
and something totally disses me off, no not the part where ???? threw out all the mark outs.
its wen i had to clear a table, fuck! got heiniken.
yup that beer, i dont even know whether i spelled it correct
and i had to clear it up. i didnt use my hand though. i sweep it off the table.
lil' of the beer got on to my hand, i totally freaked and ran in the store to wash it off.
pfft~ and it smells.
and i've gain weight. buto ah!

and got scolded just now at 3 plus?
ayah.
i totally forget that i was suppose to be down to pass him something.
i totally forget. i was crying again, infront of the comp.
after he saw my tears, he cooled off.
but i didnt cool off. i just cried. something hurted me.
heck, the feeling got numb. it went away. :)
i'll think of it at times, i'll just get teary eye. its normal.
i might be a straight up strong looking girl.
ppl who knows me , the 'i got feeling' me, they will know i cry alot. haha.
& its my dad bday today. he is ... fourty ...2/3. you pick!
hahahahahha, i dono his age laaa.
forget.

doesnt it sucks to know that what you wish could happen, just wouldnt?
yeah, it sucks.
but you know, those thing will happen in the future. you'll neve know the outcome
till then, just try to make it work so the future will work for you too.
:)
and i love aiman hanan.
i felt real mature during the talk just now bby. haha.
we'll make it through, i'll be here, i promise :)
and i tak nak kene spot check. haha. :)
night ppl.
will update bout end of year post later on.
byebye

lets seeeeeee.
nothing happen today?
many gerek costumers today. haha.
one puji my caramel macchiato.
one puji my name, or was it my me? ntah lah.
hahahahhahahaha!
PERASAAN KEJUPLEX~ .
and i freaking laughed at a costumer infront of his face.
cause die mcm selenge. but i wasnt really laughing at him.
i was laughing at syakir cause he did something really that is sooo mem-paisey kan that costumer.
after the incident, he dissapeared. tak dtg balik.
LOL! kekek.

working morning later on.
10 till 5.
hanan bby will be back later on too!
wee~ i miss hana.
hahahha.
and hanan? tak miss?
dont be dumb. of course i miss him.
proof? if you guys could. go steal his motorola phone and see how many sms-es i smsed him while he was gone. hahaha
ntah la berape. tell me ke bby wen you switched on your phone already.

going to like rep' sb-cm for a presentation this sunday. haha
coffee tasting. this make me wan to like be a coffee master asap.
i dont wan to like be 'yaya' telling the customers bout the coffee's
wen i know so lil info bout it. hahah
but seriously, i know just not soooo muc of it.
i got the christmas blend info right. hahaha. :)
i love my job, just sometimes it gets a lil frustrating and tiring.
but worth it, i got GREAT partners. :)
and soon, there will be 4 new partner.
haha.

school starting soon
pfft~
and this puts me in a foul mood.
okay la. gd night.

totally random. hahaha.
but i love my life right now.
dont even know why.
i guess , i mean i know some of the reasons could be cause.
i have a boyfriend that i can count on.
i have the g-reatest best friend ever.
and a job,i can get stuff by myself with my hard earn money , i swear thats the best feeling ever.
im a grown up now, no need my mums money
except for wen my pay ran out. hahaha.
time tu ibu and ayah must comes out those cash.
and oh, great family. hahha
okay bye.

im tired.
wen shopping just now, with ayah.
he bought me a school shoe and some other sneakers.
the other sneakers looks like the new balance shoe.
with those striking shoe and all .
bought a dress, yes another one. hahhaha.
kinda conservative kind, like i wan.
but i turn it to un-conservative wen i put it together with the shorts i own.
haha
lunched at vivo, eat ban mian. SEDAP! haha.
saw nabs and cikgu suhana.
sms-ed nabs to tell her bout it, she look around like mcm ade bomb.
-.-
but goody, cikgu didnt saw both of us? haha.
okay whatever laaa.
no one cares.

& I'VE GOT THE MOST IRRITATING MY BEST FRIEND EVER. kan zeek kan?
ccccb! ahah.

craving for ban mian.
craving for ban mian.

finally, got to contact aiman hanan rafi today.
:)
i miss my bby like alot.
i kinda cried wen he replied (*he appeared offline.)
i was jumping for joy.
but bby was doing some work, so we didnt talk much.
:(
i miss him.
its our anni today.
9th. :)
you'll receive something bby.
just come back soon.
i love you , forever and always.

im gonna go now.
bye.
:(

i had the most freakishly dream today.
more like scary.
cant think straight right now.
help me god!
i need hanan so bad right now.
:(

so, work yesterday was super duper hectic.
customer came in every mins.
the que was going out our entrance door.
now i have ulcerssssss in my mouth.
4 to be exact.
im not ready for school, like seriously not ready.
im not even sure wen the 'optional form' is suppose to be handed in, i think is being called that?
hahahha.
im just exhausted.
i need a break.
getting one tomoro. im going out to just chill lepak around.
i'll see eh. :)

bye now.
seriously, cant think straight.

im practically going crazy.
hanan, is gone. im not counting the day cause it will only make it seem forever.
work is drving me a lil kuku.
school, being force/push to go to sec 5 is 'bleargh'

on a lighter note.
i had to do some delivering for my store just now.
had to go to clarke quay.
suke suke suke suke!!!
da malam banyak ang moh's . haha
had to go to 2 place, liang court and central.
walked pass through clarke quay!
maha gerek la that place, alot of cool high class looking club.
*god, make me legal soon!
i wan to do some lepak-ing there soon. :)
lets see, i made a mistake. like expected.
pfft~
after clake quay i was suppose to go to centerpoint.
but i kinda forget and just wen back to sk. hahaha.
soo, yana send another attch partner to goo. hoho.
nasib! :)
FYI~ i wen there w/o any make up on. like whatthafark kan?!!
ishishish.
finally found my apron. haha. kinda misplaced it.

working again tomoro.
4-11 :)
not sure with who. i think got attchment partner from ep.
hoho. wish me luck . pfft~
most commandly asked question this passed day.
'are you going for any countdown party?
my ans, maybe yes maybe no. i dono what shift i am being put on that day. till then dont ask.
:)
and also, i will have to ask aiman hanan if i can go & my mum too.
like seriously, which over protective mum would allow her child to go?
my mum will start calling me at 8pm to ask if im coming home or not?
-.-
sometimes she doesnt, came back at 12am once.
she just ask where i was at and she wen to sleep. hahaha.

pretty much out of words.
gonna chat with my bff now.
hahaha. if he is still online.
byeeee.

hello.
bye

simply a great movie to watch.
worth every cent.
10/10.
hahahahha. why i like it?
go watch it yourself and tell me your reason.
:)
try kissing a dude for 17 min. georgia did it.
get to see girls in thongs ( im straight , no worries )
and learn really interesting words.
hahahhahaha.

after movie, lunched or dinner at rex.
then walked to orchad. window shop
teman natasha . then meet muzzamil at his work place.
nothing much happen uh.
watching the movie make me think of bby.
i miss him :(



TOMMY BASTOW
AKA, dave the laugh



AARON JOHNSON,
AKA ROBBIE


HOT.


but no one beats him.
aiman hanan rafi
and by by by!!! the shoe i wan.
got sell!!! but its $159.
:( mahal.
i miss you

bought a new phone.
but whats the point?
hanan is not here. :(
i miss him.
i was real quiet yesterday, ibu asked me 'why?'
i simply said that i was tired, wen im actually dying to receive an sms from him :(
oh, wen to simpang bedok yesterday.
i thought/think, i saw maisa.
bby, is it herrr? haha.
she look like herrr.
is she even in s'pore?
i even dream bout her that night. & you're in it too.
aha.

and i passed my N level's .
i cried wen i got the results. i was so happy.
i never felt as happy as ever.
maybe once, wen aiman hanan became mine.
but this time it felt better then that (sorry bby)
its because i dono, its something I achieve.
i passed humans, b3!
i passed english ,b3! ( well, everyone did passed thier english)
and i passed d&t c4.
but they didnt take my d&t marks
they took my malay, which is 2.
haha.

im happy, yet something is bringing me so down.
hanan not being around.
saddest news of the week, i have to stop working.
:(
sedih gilerrrrrrr.

not in mood now.
:(
bye.

results. pfft~
worked with sophie, darly, sarah, hetty and shaz today.
oh and joy. haha.
:)
fun fun. doing pre closing with hetty and shaz was fun.
hetty keep saying that im out of my bloody mind laughing alone.
shaz and sarah keep teasing me.
and wohoo.
thanks sarah for packing those food for meeeee :)
ade cheesecake. yay!
lets see, not working for 2 days.
:( bye bye money.

parents plan to go for a shopping spree.
pantat.
kalau aku fail like as if they gonna bring me out.
pay is being cut, and might not receive my stupid $210 training pay.
what kind of luck am i getting god? :(
to make this worst. hanan aint around.
if my luck continue... failing N's is pretty expected
im gonna prepare some tissues for myself. and for the others too.
im going back to store after results. share the bad or good news to syahkir. :)
if i can, i wanna tell bby.
then ibu.
then kakak
and syahkir. haha.
dont ask why.
we just click.

i miss aiman hanan.
goodnight.
cant sleep.
drank
iced hazelunut latte, hazelnut latter, raspberry cream ( wrong order )
thats all. hahah
makan?
tak makan today. :(
no mood
bye.

i need to get something off my chest.

1st, 187 bucks of my pay will be deducted for this coming month
im just so pissed.
not words can describe this feeling.
first, its not my fault. you didnt tell me that im suppose to punch in as 'traning barista'
second, you should have told me right from the moment you saw me punching in.
now, half of my pay is being deducted.
bloody fuck,
you still have yet to give me my re-bar test, then till forever i will get that 3.50per hour pay.
you didnt even give me the results to my bar test.
i fucking dono what to do
187 is not a small amount to be deducted.
receiving it is not big either. _l_
after working this long, i should be a pt barista by now.
_l_
im just go fucked up.

its been bumpy.
results in a few days time.
chances of failing is high, to make it worst, hana & hanan wont be here. :(
home? parents will just judge me. not knowing how hard i've tried. *eventhough i put in 0 efford for math.
words like 'stupid' 'pemalas' 'bodoh' will be there.
and all i will do is cry.
and they will be like 'why cry? its your fault for not studying!'
is it wrong to cry ? pfft~
ah. fuck it uh.


palabutochibyepukimaknabeybabisundal

if you dare, talk to me.
_l_

not in the mood really,
i miss hanan badly :(
i'll let the picture do the talking alright.
first few is taken on our back from the shop.
i wanted to go to get sweets and stuff, but we ended up eating ice cream.
and still the mat cool ice cream doesnt kill the need/wan of eating gelare ice cream waffle.
and sorry if it is not soo clear.
its was dark, and my camera suck.
nvm, i'll be getting a dslr.
soon you guys will see a picture sooo clear. :)
bye now.
i miss hanan. :(

bby, im sorry.
thats all i can say.
i know probably the thing i did was lil to many.
but it aint to me.
i feel like i lied. but i just cant bring myself to tell you.
you will have to find it by yourself.
i know, maybe if you could .
you would wan me to tell you.
trust my bby, i cant.
i dont wan to go through the part you'll cold towards me.
i dont wan that.
i dont wan things to be bad between us before you leave.
i wan you to go with a smile on your face, and i'll be tears.

Your my man no doubt that I'm your girl
Baby it's you and me against the world
The way you love me is unnatural
Like I'm the only girl who is exsisting in your world
The chances to find somebody almost like you.
Is a million to oneSo the battle is won.

never thought that miracles could happen
Your living proof that he's up there listenin
And whenever I'm lost you help me find my way home
You direct me back to your house
I'm so proud baby
You're mine.

sometimes you feel your battleing an army just to love me more
Trust me baby I'll do you better
Cause I can't lose the one thing that holds me together
He's my core someone I can call on forever

aiman hanan , im sorry.

him, her and him :)
arent they cute?
ahhh. i wish i was born as fair as three of them.
hahaha.

first aiman hanan, my boyfriend 3 word. i love him :)
i complained to him alot.
he got a worst of me, maybe not fully worst yet. but soon bby. be patient. haha
and he listen to me. best kaan? haha. :)
we've been through shit.
still we're here. :)

second. HANA KHALDON ABDAT!
my second complaining partner.
and my secret sharer. :)
she is like my news reporter from home to me.
she is my eye wen im not around aiman hanan. hahaha :)
and lastly my friend. :)
sooo wishing her all the best in her n results. im sure she will pass, she's smart.
i miss you la hana. get online soooon. i wan to talk to you.
:)

LASTLY, :)
habir.....
cute kaan?
haiz. speechless already. ahaha
looking at his picture, he makes me smile.
imagine seeing touching and hugging him. i dono la how it will be.
i will smile until i get cramps on my face. haha

and i hope they will be my family in future. :)
all i ask for is that.
:)
night / morning ppl.

my body is aching from my head to my toe.
i need a massage. badly.
my shoulders hurts the most.
and my legs, thanks to all those standing .
work was okay.
i was being put at POS. i hate the position.
take money give money call out orders.
my sweet voice, like kene jual. pfft~
anyhooooooo, i eat macdonalds today.
like kepalabutochibye fucking wasted la kan all those diet.
i've been eating rice too. like _l_
binget gilerrrrr.


anyhoooooooooo.
i went to work with my red nail polish on.
then kene called out by yana.
plus our district manager was there. mati akuuuu!
then yana told me to remove it like asap. sooo i did.
nasibbb.
closing shift AGAIN!!! today.
mcm hobby la kan suroh aku buat closing.
oh. have i ever tell you i sooo want leather jacket?
i just sooo wan one.
and another dress. next pay, i shall get it babesss~ :)
and leather jacket long sleeve, conservatice gilerrr.
kan bby kaan? hahha ;p



i wan to make 2 special post uh.
here i gooo.

MUHD ZIKRI BIN ZAINUDINN

this will be my second post talking and yaking bout him. hhaha

i did ask him for another picture. i just cant seem to find it

anyhooooo, him. that makes me laugh without fail everytime i talk to him.

him, the one i scolded wen he called me once he was like 'eh sorry sorry salah'

hahahhaa. :)

him my best buddy ever, him the one that listen to me like as if he has 4 ears.

him who i still own a strawberry sundae. him who made me fall in love with lost prophet.

him whom i can just kutok to make myself laugh . *and he kutok me 10times worst.

just him, simple yet a bucket full of F-U-N.

okay, im done.

P/S

ZEEK! JGN NAGIS TAU BILER BACE NI. HAHAH.

:)

okay. haha.
the post below was a tease.
of course im going to post a way longer post then that

wen out of the house as early as 11 just now
had a class with lance.
it was a one on one kinda class.
pretty creepy, but he was nice.
then after that, i wen to city hall.
with kakak, she was from school. -.-
(ape ntah nak gi sekolah sekolah! orang da abes maseh gi sekolah. kental ah lu!)
kite pegi .. am i suppose to blog bout this? hahahahha.
k, part ni secret uh.
bye.
oh a'ah! while waiting for sistaar.
nmpk fir la siaaaak!
i was like 'fir! firdaus!' he was like 'eh! ifa!'
i swear i could hug him but mcm paisey uh, infront of his friends all. hahha
:)
i bought a 'school girl' skirt there. the one i once post at my blog.
mine is in red though, lawaaaa.
pendek sikit jeee, cause im tall maaaaah! pfft~

then after that.
i ajak kakak go bugis.
oh yeah! i wen shopping today. hahaa.
there, i bought just one dress.
its green with white flora design. :)
it took about 2 hours for me to find A dress.
hahaha. took break in between.
wen to makan makan at tong seng. :) you teenagers should know where is it.
its the 'it' place to eat if your at bugis.
i swear i love that conservative top. but its like way over budget~
hahaha. but if i were to purchase it, i wont wear it with a conservative bottom obviously!
if i wear, lebih baik pakai tudung sekali!
-.-
then blablabla. saye balik.
wen to the store for a while. to take apron.
:)
nak cuci. da kotooor.

i'll end it here.
k bye.
:)

i love aiman hanan rafi period!
done!
bye
ha.

im not in the pic. haha
taken on the open house day.
at this point, we were done with the giving our free drinks.
its the lets clean up and go home part.
not complete though. pfft~


TODAY IS THE BESTEST WORKING DAY EVERRRRR~
i dont know why? its just is. haha
and holy shit! i got my pay!
HAHAHAHAHAH!
gerek giler.
sarah and ariff keep saying 'suke eehh?'
cause i keep giggle to myself.
its like my first ever pay working at starbucks.
wee~
fun gilerrrrrrrrr. haha.
:)
drank chocolate cream chip frappucino( extra java chip and syrup ) and 2 ice shaken lemon zen tea.
hahahaha!
and now, im in need of a shopping partner.
anyone?
bby?... hana?... haha.



thus, i diss AimanHananRafi again.
im sorry.
i dont why i keep doing that.
i feel bad.
things wont change.
bby .. im really proud to have you as my boyfriend.
really i am.
something happen during working just now.
it made me realise even more on how proud i am of us.
i'll tell you later on or something. if you wan to listen to me that is.
i miss you.
and i love you.
im sorry.

AIMAN HANAN RAFI!!!
I NAK GELARE WAFFLE ICE CREAM!!
YOU BETTERR ....... !!!
UHUH IM PISSED.

I'm losing my mind, I'm falling apart
I wanna feel your heart and all I see is you
I'm such a fool to treat you like I do
when I take my fears and throw them all on you.

But it's you, so delicate, so pure,
enough to seem unreal
yes it's you, so delicate, so pure,
it's so hard to believe.
I love your laugh, the way you say my name
I want to be hard, I wanna know your pain
I was so wrong, but now I see the truth
I blame it on my youth and I'm coming back to you.

Here in the dark, I need you like a drug
take anything you want, the part of me you need
wash over me, desire has a face
I wanna make you see, I've nowhere else to be but with you

With simplicity,
I'd listen to your breath
listen to your heart beat
I would be so near, we could push away the fear
I'd come to see all of your tears
I'd come to see all of your smiles
with butterfly eyes

for you bby.
from me :)

MY FAVOURITE DANCE ROUTINE TO WATCH PERIOD.
it tells me a great love story.
tells me, no matter how a couple fuss and fight, no matter what
they will fall back on to each other.
this dance performance made me cry.
i post this video before, like months back.
and people, its back on again. haha :)
the song was being put on my blog too.

anyhooo,
hari raye haji was a bore.
pfft~
even felt asleep at cik anong's place.
fyi, i slept wearing the baju kurung. haha
it was comfortable though.
i felt very covered. hahahah.
nope. no pictures. takde mood to take any.
and HAHAHAHAH
aku muat KAKAK aku nye baju kurung. m size. hahaha
wohooo. NOT IF PPL SAY I'VE SLIM DOWN, aku percaye.
haha
but seriously, no diff. pfft~
im gonna get slimmer. :)
working tomoro, closing again.
its tiring okaaay.
lucky ariff was around to help me yesterday. if not i bet will finish at 2 am!
okay bye.
:)

At first, I've lost my direction and I was just glad to be alive
but then, I had to meet myself and my depression and I,
I should have swallowed all my pride
and I know it now, yes I know it now
and I want to know him now, 'cause I want to love him now.

lets see.
my pay is being brought forward.
which is .. a complete disaster.
im in need of money.
i wan to watch movie & eat gelare ice cream all that requiers money!
tell me who would wan to go out with me and pay for all thatt!?

anywoooooooo.
im getting hair extensionssss.
not those yang nak panjang kan rambot kinda extension.
my hair is long sooo, tak perlu uh.
im getting red and blonde striks.
about 20 of those.
i know alot of minah's is doing that!
i know i know.
but i wanted it since i was in sec 2? ask karina, she will know.
i was in the whole emo look last time.
i though having red hair is cool.
now since im earning money, im getting it.
:)
i tooo wanted to dye my fringe blonde. plain blonde, kinda think of it now,
its soooo not me. pfft~
what else , i miss my cousinsssss.
oh yeaaah
HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY MUHD ZULFIRDAUS BIN ZULKHIR
:)
working later.
i've made friends with a madrasah aljunid kid. hahaha
name je budak madrasah! tapi semalame maki aku.
kimaaaak! hahah :)
i'll tell you guys more about this friend of mine.
:)
okaaay
bye ppl.

aiman hanan, ~

I'm not afraid to say that I love you
Cause I'm not afraid of how I feel
Why would I need to be out with another
Don't need to be with a bunch of man, I know you do me the best
Don't need a million opinions to know you ain't like the rest
I'm not afraid to say that I love ya
And I'll let the whole world know
i love you

in need to dance.
hahahah
i dont know why?!
i miss nvmd. i miss getting muscle aches after every dance practice.
i miss being able to move freely. i miss getting frustrated if i dont get a dance move right.
i miss miss zu. :)
i miss dancing with amalinaaaa. :)
i miss the stage, performing, winning, getting hype for every performance.
i might even be going down for the dance prac this 15th!
i might even dance! :) i just need to laaaaa.
and then i shall see how fast i feel tired after dancing a few rounds.
hahaha. i haven run for donkey months now, yet many say i've lose weight. hahah
:)
maybe? i can fit in my sisters skirts now. hahaa
:)
okaybye

i miss aimanhananrafi <3

:)
im back here again.
work was not so tiring today.
but they days before, it really was.
had to travel all the way to woodlands , civic center to be specific.
for? i had to go the their outlet to take some products and stuff.
they call it 'the transfer' hahaha. -.-
its was really fun, i got a have a lil nap in the bus.
got to sms AimanHananRafi <3 , stare blankly at nothing & pretty much think/reflect bout my life. :)
it beats standing up making frappucino or bar drinks non-stop kan.
the moment i got home , i sleep .
i didnt even take off my uniform.
i slept in my jeans and my uni. haha.
damn tired. and i left AimanHananRafi alone.
which i still fell bad for doing so.
sorry.
lets see.
oh yes! TOMORROW IS THE STARBUCKS OPEN HOUSE.
come at get a free tall size drink , on the house(worth$6.40?)
yes, any drink off the menu.
and its an island wide event. so, if you live at tamp, just head down the tamp mall to get a free drink. haha
:)
or you can even come down to compass point to see my pretty face.
i'll be there all smiles. haha :)

i miss AimanHananRafi.
if you are wondering why im calling him by his full name.
haha. i myself dont know why.
i like his name really, especially the hanan part.
dont ask why, i dont know la.
making my blog private again, soon.
oh! i wanna leave AimanHananRafi a msg everytime i blog.
leaving on tonight.
so he will read it while im at work and smile :)
he got a real nice smile, LIKE ME! hahahah.

today's work was at east point.
just for a day, for the cheer party.
its was uh... .. yeah. ahha.
seriously, there aint a word to put in.
its was half a bored because i know no one.
and smiling doesnt help, non of them smiled back. maybe a few.
got pushed, hard. haha
whateverrr.
im proud that im a partner is cm outlet. :)
i was 3 hours early, so was arif.
only me joy and ariff attended that.
spend the 3hours talking to ariff bout work, bikes and bungy jumping off a cliff or something.
-.-
purely boredom.
& maybe i should too put on alot of make up like them

HAHAH! not! i shall only look good for myself and aiman hanan. :)


speaking of my boyfriend.
his leaving in .. 14days.
leaving for 10 days maybe?
am not sure, he told me but i forgot.
and i wan to tell him somthing now.
so he will read it tomoro wen im at work.
:)

if only im good at words.
i would use all the words i've learn for the past 16years off my life and use it in this post.
you knowing me, i aint smart so thats a pass!
everytime i know i've fail , need someone , in need of anything at all.
you will be there. even though you're sick or busy.
you'll hear my complains , my rants , hurtful words
and make me feel better, or at least wen you dont sucessed, you tried.
i appriciate that alot. knowning you just made 2008 the best year ever.
bringing you down, thats what im good at.
that too is the 2nd last thing i wanna do,
but somehow . im doing that all the time.
sorries, i've said that many times.
i came to realise, im a selfish person. in many ways that i dont even know where to start.
in one way i know, im selfish when it comes to loving you.
if i could, i wan you to love me and i to love you only. not even you're mum can love you.
i wan to show you how good i can be at loving you.
if i could i wan to put you in some dark room with a picture of me and a spotlight on it so that i'll be the only person you see. -.-
yet i've fail.
im sorry. i ran out of words.
i just wan you to know what i feel that i cant express or show or even tell you.
and what im feeling is i dont even know.
its a mixture.
angst,sorry,failure,love,misses etc.
i love you. im sure bout that.

With no words at all
So tiny and small
In love i fall so deep so deep
My precious love
Sent from above
My baby boo
Gotta thank you gotta thank you
Cause without you
How did i get through
All of my days
Without you
Now living with you
See everything true
My baby it`s you

seriously, i just watched the funniest jackass show ever!!
im laughing my ass off laaa. hahah

i wan to go to henderson wave, clarke quay and i wanna have gelare waffle ice cream
oh! not forgetting movie.

im working later at 4 till closing which is at 12.30am.
wee~
no idea who im working with.
haha.
im back hurts, my leg hurts and my hand is soooo over dry.
pfft~
but overall, working is fun yet tiring.
did alot of sampling for the pass days, did 3 with shakir yesterday.
now, in store im known as 'queen of sampling'. haha
okay. im practically bored.
getting my pay in 6 days time. :)
happy giler! but i dont know where my card is.
haha.

and oh!
im a bloody part timer damn it!
how can you expect me to work everyday?!
i compare my scheduel with my other part timer partner.
they get more off day then i do.
my scheduel is the same as alex, who is a full timer.
shit in the pants la.
at this rate, i will come to work with my eyes close
yes i say 'anytime' but hell, dont take adventage off it.
you think i got no life?
pfft~ nbcb

bye uh.
shall update later when i come back from work.