hectic day.
like literally.
friends actin all gangsta!
hahah.
like seriously they did laaa.
mcm nak parang pon ade. haha.
and i woke up at 6.45am , yes i was late but i made it in time.
i seriously couldnt open my eyes to get ready to go to school.
but dragged myself there.
i dono why i am this tired.
im drained mentally i guess?. i dont know?
im not working, so i dont know what seriously is buggin me.

and oh!
i passed my math test bby! hahah.
for the first time in 2 years.
and i did alot of mistake. thus 2 marks was being stolen away.
haha. :)
and i think this version of insomnia is waaaay better.
dont you guys think so?
8 more days to pay day.
like, can that come earlier or soemthing.
pfft~
gelare ice cream is waiting for me. *licks lip*
dresses and shoes to be bought.
haha.
bugis, penin & clarke quay will be on the map.

im gona go now.
bye.

dont feel like blogging.
but since i have nothing to do i'll update it.
i've done my math hw !
matrices? something like that. a new topic.
manageable. :)
cause zeek taught me a like a few section of it.
oh yeah, wen to the airport to study with him and kim and juliana?
i think.
it was a short one cause i wan to be home already.

saturday & sunday.
spend with fellow family.
dad side and mom side.
at ecp.
sleptover there.
saw shida.
pocket bike-ed.
frisbeeeeeee! :)

pictures will be update soon.
wen im in a mood.
im going now.
bye. :)

oh, i remember
you driving to my house
in the middle of the night
i'm the one who makes you laugh
when you know you're about to cry
and i know your favorite songs
and you tell me about your dreams
think i know where you belong
think i know it's with me.
:)

It's not so easy loving me
It gets so complicated
All the things you've gotta be
Everything's changin
But you're the truth
I'm amazed by all your patience
Everything I put you through

When I'm about to fall
Somehow you're always waitin
with your open arms to catch me
You're gonna save me from myself

My love is tainted by your touch
Cuz some guys have shown me aces
But you've got that royal flush
I know it's crazy everyday
Well tomorrow may be shaky
But you never turn away

Don't ask me why I'm cryin
Cuz when I start to crumble
You know how to keep me smilin
You always save me from myself
You're gonna save me from myself

I know it's hard, it's hard
But you've broken all my walls
You've been my strength, so strong

And don't ask me why I love you
It's obvious your tenderness
Is what I need to make me
a better woman to myself
You're gonna save me from myself

since vday is coming..
it will make a nice gift.
HINT HINT.
:)

hmm.
i actually have nothing to blog bout.
ibu is undergoing an operation tomoro.
she plans to be warded. sooo, its a good thing la kan?
no one i will be at home.
maybe my big fat ugly rude 'brother' will be home.
pfft~
i hate him, dont you?

anywaysssss.
school was a bore?
math test tomoro!!!
we were suppose to start on matrix today. but mrs yap didnt come.
which was a good thing?
i fell asleep during social studies.
im reading this book i found in my room.
really good book, its about a couple getting married.
sweet la gitu. ahha.

i will be working this friday and sunday.
i feel like taking an mc this sunday.

and its amazing.
my relationship with hanan.
in 3days time, it'll be our 10th anni.
haha.
mcm magic like that.
i still feel like it is our 5th anni or something.
loving him still.
he havent been fighting. it feels nicey nice.
haha.
:)bye ppl.

correction! i bought kakak a braclet.
today school is pretty much a bore.

being in sec 5 simply is pressurizing.
you cant even take a short break in between lesson.
like i would usually chat for a while and stuff.
but counting the days to the exam.
even 1 minute counts during lesson time.
thursday will be our first very test of this year.
math. sets & venn daigram.
i pretty much have it covered.
maybe i can pass this test. wen i do i will smile so brightly.
i never pass any math test before, unless i get the answers from other ppl.

im finally addicted to the song halo by beyonce.
like nice la kan the song.
im running out of cash. die die die.
and hougang mall just opened a cotton on outlet.
i still prefer the one at novena.
just like the fact that i still prefer ban mian from century square.
hahhaaha.
hungry now.

bye
so much for im not gonna shut you out.
pfft~

school school school.
d&t = exhaustion
well, homed late todayy.
school stuff. and library for a lil while.
with nabs kari and neil.
nothing much have like happen the pass days.
oh yeah.

saturdays spend with cousin's.
changi for the flea market .
bought myself a wallet and bought kakak a neckles.
and a book. haha.
eat something.
and one aunty puji me aahh.
she say i pretty. haha. :)
biasa biasa jugak babe.

pictures will be up soon?

tomoro im planning to go and study at airport?
maybe?
if dapat kebenaran dari ibu dan bapa saya.
hahahahhahaha.
see, my malay aint that terok.
pfft~
k bye.

Guys Like That You're Sensitive

And not in that "cry at a drop of a hat" sort of way You just get most guys - even if you're not trying to Guys find it is easy to confide in you and tell you their secrets No wonder you tend to get close quickly in relationships!

You Are Occasionally a Jerk Magnet

You've been known to attract real jerky guys from time to time... But the truth is, you know what you're getting into. You can help but love bad boys.

You Can Make 94% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You

Admit it, you can seduce practically anyone. And sometimes you try just for fun. You're a total heartbreaker that knows when to play it cool. You are the type of person people go completely lovesick over. Just use your powers for good, okay?

Your Love Score Is: 85

It's truly love. You have an amazing partner and a wonderful relationship. Your relationship isn't perfect, but you know how to work with each other to make it better. You both listen to one another, give freely, and do your best to make things work. While you have ups and downs like any other couple, you're good at getting through the bad times together. And although you find it easy to love your partner, you understand that lasting love doesn't come easily. You are both willing to give this relationship everything you have. And luckily, that's all it takes to make it work.

IT SATURDAAAAAAAAYYYY!
cousin's day out. :)

and if only liza can read this...

i know its tough, i know it hurts, i know it will be even harder now to stay focus.
and whatever i say, it wouldnt be easy to just throw away the stuff that happened.
but there is a reason why im sitting infront of you in class. and beside you in malay.
no matter what you have to say, i'll listen.
i know it hurts, i've been there. :)
being a lady, our tears are worth millions of dollars.
dont waste it on something that decide to just walk away.
keep it for wen you receive you O cert.
its much more worth it then aite babe?.
i love you. :)

And on the go I lost my soul
To some forgotten dream and
How was I supposed to know
It wasn't what it seemed
And even though the last to low
Has left me on the floor
I don't believe in Romeos or heroes anymore...

hello.
lack of post uh? haha.
i know.
just been busy with school and work and life especially.

school have been exhausting.
staying focus in class is just so important right now.
especially math. trust me , if i can get d7 for math. im happy enough.
cause i NEVER pass math.
d7 shows that i've improved, from undergrade to that. haha. :)
and getting b4 again for o's *malay* the second time round is so dissapointing.
wen my mum called and i told her the results.
i swear her voice it made me cry, she sound super dissapointed.
that made me like wan to try harder to excel in my studies.
i dono, i'll just have to jump into the pressure zone get over with it.
hopefully, i'll be one of the top students.
hahaha. my aim?
A1 - D&T
A1 - HUMANITIES
A1 - MOTHER TONGUE
A2 - ENGLISH
seee, i've got plan to get a few distinction.
insyallah.

work.
another thing that i have to manage.
its been up my ass la.
eventhough i work for 2 days a week.
that hours i can spend it revising math or science or even thinking bout my d&t project.
and not being able to commit to my job just sucks.
cause i might be getting fired sooner or later.
i would love to stop working , but i'll miss working.
but i will soon enough. have to. exam's period.
:)

life?
up down. left right.
anywhere it leads i'll have to follow.
cause there is'nt anywhere else to go.
maybe there is another alternative, i just cant see it yet. :)
and i've not cry for days now.
its a good thing.
and im starting to love myself. :)
haha. being fat doesnt bother me no more.
but i would love to lose 10kg.
haha.
i'll update more wen im back into the virtual world.

god is love.
thaqifah (yalahyalah! i copy rev run from run's house. hahaha)

or

god bless. (copied hanan) :)
i love him. refering to hana that is

my way now.
okay bye.

im just kinda frustrated at myself.
'should i just dump school and go to ITE?'
cause seriously, i cant see myself doing well for O's
seriously, for N level itself i get 2 undergrades.
math & science.
my worsening mother tongue save my freaking ass.
looking at my results.
im hopeless.
teachers been pestering us to go to ITE, that is for those who think he/she cant make it through
O's is oh so completely different

seriously, whats the point if i do take O's?
i just get a failed cert anyways, whats the fucking use of it?
i know ppl might be you're lucky enough to get through to O's
but seriously, if youre in my shoe . you'll know where you stand.
and give it a shot?
im wasting my dad's 400plus salary for this paper.

even if i buck up now.
its too late.
i've given up on math science sec 3. so i know nuts bout it.
science? maybe i could catch up. cause its an interesting subject.
but my huge prob is that,
i keep falling asleep in class. and tend not to focus at all.
work is super not helping, the 3 month probation is such an ass.
maybe i still cope with it. maybe cant?
i'll just have to learn how to overcome this i guess?
but im tired. really, i am.
im tired of tying yet failing.
pfft~
whatever uh
bye.

how manys days have it been?
i didnt like update for 1 ke 2 days i guess?
been working and schooling at the same time.
but serious, i think i can take the pressure and tired-ness for now.
but not for long. i feel kinda exhausted already.
working and schooling.
plus, O's is THE thing in s'pore.
so passing it would be great. can proof to that someone im smart!
and i can take care of his son! :)
haha. no link. but heck.

work yesterday was fun!
sarah's shift :)
and cm-sb wen through an make over.
and some customer pecahkan 2 glasses and walked away without paying for it.
like what thaaa?!
and i didnt go to school today.
overslept and ibu tak kejot. haha.
but hanan did, but tido balik. so sorry by!
gerek tak gi sekolah? okay laaaa.
todays subject is like shit. first 3 period is D&T. you know how much i hate D&T.
at times, i like that sub. haha
i guess just thinking of the sub, it makes me sleep.

and ibu won some hp.
you know the arcade game? yeah. she won something out of it again.
our psp's are from the machine, so is my dad's current phone.
she called me during work just to tell me that.
speaking of dad. he dont know i didnt go to school today.
so sape2 out there, jgn pecah kan this secret. hahaha
okay bye peepss.

school.
fun, talked ALOT!
with liza and ayu in class. LIKE ALOT!
miss zu said she can hear my voice from the other end of the parade square that morning.
BEDEK UH MISS ZUU! haha. :)
anywhooo after school lepak-ed with ayu, raa, nats, nabs, shaheer & shafiee.
& wa wa wa!! ayu da attached, after 2 years. hahaha.
then headed home. slept for 15mins and off to work.
again, work was GREAT. haha.
closing shift. :)
and yeah, a lot of food was being bought back. hoho.
:)

2009 is gonna be misirable.
i foresee it.
being force to take O's aint good.
many stuff uh.
i'll cry myself to sleep again now.
bye.
i love you , aiman hanan.
i need you more then ever now bby. :(

happy new year alright ppl?! :)
spend my day with cousins.e
everyone was there. the day ended at 3 plus am.
we headed to pasir ris to play bowling.
i had fun cause i didnt do that bad.
and heck. alot of mats and minahs there.
all maseh budak2 nye case. pfft~















non of the picture above is edit.
so you guys can see my pale tan skin.
and kutok it all you wan.
lazy.
bye.


hopes dash.
feelings trash.
tears clash.
wont be easy to start a fresh